When you get to a certain age night time wee's are just a part of your life. It doesn't help that I also haven't learned not to go to bed with a cup of tea or a pint of water yet but me and sleep have always had a fickle relationship so I do what I can to drop off. Quite often, normally around 2am, I wake up, walk to the loo but my brain continues to dream whilst I'm up and about. My mind just seems to continue on dreaming whatever it's dreaming but my bladder is like, “Carry on mate I've got a quick job to do and then back over to you!”. I've seen full images of friends crouched behind my wardrobe, my shoes have “appeared” to walk across the room by themselves. I've also seen exotic and colourful birds perched on the end of the bed and my room has transformed into a cattery. Yes, my brain is sometimes like a bad rendition of a “Home and Away” ( does anybody watch that any more? ) nightmare. Except I'm not scared. This last week my waking dreams have become a little more intense. Last night I woke up at 2am only to watch golden lights dance across my bedroom. Too big to be “orbs” and too bright to be anything reflecting from outside they glowed in hues of gold and ochre with a white centre that looked like one of those spinning top childrens toys. Then the lights went and every shadow in the room became a spider. Yep. A spider. Now thankfully I'm not afraid of them but some of these spider legs were the length of my bedroom itself. I had to turn my phone light on, wake myself up more to remind my brain that it was dreaming and then the whole thing stopped.
Spiders have always been a symbol for me of deep magic. They are signs of transformation and alchemy. Inspired by my waking dreams I think I am going to do a project on them. They are too weird to not share. I've kept dream journals in some form or another since I was 16 so I think I'll dig through them to see if anything interesting comes up. Oh, I should probably do a little promoting in this blog so, I've updated my Etsy page! Every piece of art I've made recently is now up on there for sale. I havent' made prints yet but if you're interested then let me know. Also, I'm making real progress now with wrapping up writing the new album. As soon as it's done I'm just going to book studio time and get I done asap. I did have this secret plan to try and start recording it myself but that's just not happening right now. Anyways, check that out and as always I am open to suggestions. If there's something you want to see more of let me know and I'll do my best to accommodate!
Big Mighty Love,
Ryan James x