4x4 teeny painting on some wood pieces I got!
I feel recently like I have been trying to compartmentalise everything about my work. Both my day job and my creative endeavours but I think I've also been learning a little about the root of it all. I love to connect with people, to share and express and be a co conspirator in inspiration. I am a perpetual student of art and a grateful musician but I am also a spiritual person and deeply enticed into all things metaphysical. For years I worked at keeping these things apart but a penny seems to have dropped recently. I have been trying to keep the two worlds separate, the spiritual and the creative and looking at it now they couldn't be any more intertwined. Everything I create is born of a healing experience, a catharsis or an expression. I take my experiences and I either wrap them up in music and take them to a new space or a release them through the singing and outlet of it. To me that is as divine a ritual as any. My piano is an alter in itself being privy to the flow of creativity and inspiration which I believe at it's root is a divine experience.
For me to hold back on expressing and talking about all of this means I have been holding back from you and I don't like how that has felt. I do everything I can to live authentically and when and where I catch myself doing the opposite I try to create change. Like I said everything I do I do for the love of connecting with everyone and holding a piece of that close to my chest means with holding a part of that connection. I'm not doing that any more and writing these blogs is a big part of healing that. To let people into that intimate and private side of my life and use that as a way to heal my own stuff and connect more readily. I guess this is one of the last few areas where I have been thinking about that cultural elusive “They”. What “They” will want to hear or listen to or be upset about. It's definitely a very young belief that I held years ago but it has no place now. I have no room for craziness and no time for chasing my own tail. It's time to allow all of my worlds to collide together to create something new.